hello autumn

havent blogged in awhile...feel like im talking to myself again haha but its 3.13am and im wide awake bored.
Leaving results arrived few weeks back...woo! Got 475 so im chuffd...im 5points off my first choice for pyschology in DCU so thats a bit annoying but im getting rechecks in October so hopefully i can change over if i go up 5points:)...unless i love Business in DCU of course!
Starting college on the 20th September too, well my Orientation week. im soo excited and nervous at the same time. Hope the people ther will be nice and i make lovely new frendzz:)
I dragged Pete to blanch yesterday to go stationary shopping...wasnt that succesful coz we didnt get out of bed in time and the shops wer all closing before we had a chance to actually buy stuff haha. so lazy... i always do this at the start of a semester, i have an urge to have really nice stationary and it never actually happens:(
Aside from college i have an interview for a part-time job in Forever21...ahh! I hate interviews theyr terrifying...almost as scary as flying. not quite though..have that on the 24th, the day after my freshers ball so im gna have to take it easy that nite unfortunately=|
Speaking of flying i booked flights to Munich for after Christmas so hopefully my fear will miraculously have disapeared by then hahah!
anyways i should really get off this...my sleeping pattern is fuckd, i really cant wait to get back to a routine. i love Autumn!!
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Unknown number.

Absolutely no interest to anyone im sure. But ive been getting this unknown caller for like 6months now on/off goes through phases of ringing me and when i answer not saying anything....Its weird coz i can hear them breathing down the phone and i know they just wont say anything....
I was out lastnight with a good few mates and i got another call, and i got it three times on holidays so i can assume its definitely not whoever i was with those times. Investigator alison haha.
But yeah...if your reading this.
Try talking to me. Might make me think your not a creep anymore. And then you wont feel the need to keep ringing me.
coz i keep narrowing it down so eventually ill find out who it is. And then you'll look reeeally weirdo/stalkerish haha.
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IBIZA.

So im home a few days from Ibiza. Best week of my life!! I've fallen in love with the island its like no where ive ever been before. I can describe it so much but you'll never know till you've been there yourself. And i recommend everyone should go atleast once:) The clubs are unreal, theyr ten times bigger than any club ive been before. easily. Theyr like warehouses. Privilege is infact an aircraft hanger and is in the guinness world records for largest club in the world.


We seen Tiesto in privilege on the Monday night. It was amazing. For like the hour and a half i stayed there. We arrived at 2 in the morning and unfortunately i got a stomach bug an hour later. Was so dyer...it was the night i was most looking forward to and all:( But i recoverd a couple days later and i can atleast say i was there haha.
I didnt sleep every night till atleast 6am. No joke i didnt think id be able for it but i survived the whole time with only 4/5 hours sleep a night. Needless to say i collapsed when i came home but your on too much of a happy buzz to be tired in Ibiza:)





Thats just a few piccys thers loads on my facebook...and loads more on other facebooks that i couldnt bare to save and reload to mine anymore haha.
Amazing amazing holiday though. Im definitely going back next year. <3

Ibiza countdown.

Been counting down the days since it was like 100days to go. Im so so so excited for thursday. Only 3days to go. I actually wasnt as excited until Pete went over on Saturday. Ive been getting daily phonecalls about how amazing it is too haha. Bit nervous bout the plane but i got a couple xanex to calm moself...also planned on having a drink when i get off the plane so not sure how thats going to work out but i need both!! I'll definitely be listening to this on the flight :)

Oxegen

Got a couple of last minute tickets for Oxegen on the Sunday. So glad i went because it was literally the only sunny day and everyone was on a much better buzz by the time we got down there. Eminem was incredible. Soo much better than i thought he would be! Faithless had a brilliant set aswell. I was gonzo for most of the day, you really dont realise how much you drink when its an all day thing. You also dont realise how sickkk you will look in the pictures with your locked face on. the girls look so gorgeous beside me i really dont know what hapend hahaha. Did a bit of a censor job on the lads giblets aswel haha...had to be done id be reported on this!!

18

Finnallly turned 18 last month, yay!! Had such a great night! I love my friends :D I look a bit crazy in some of the pictures haha but heres a few from the night...

GymClassHeroes

Was listening to that song beautiful girl by BOB thats in the charts rite now. Made me miss Gym Class Heroes!
They were so good, where did they even go? I hope Travis brings out a good new song coz they wer really so good like theres not many other bands out there like them. And Travis is a babe:) Katy perry is a FOOL.

Its now 12 o clock and i'm starting to study maths...fml
I shouldnt complain though, atleast i dont do irish! Feel so sorry for everyone having to do those two sick papers=|
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Leaving Cert

First three exams finito. Its seriously exhausting. And i cant eat in the mornings coz im a freak and i cant eat anything when im super nervous. So it doesnt help the lack of energy situation.. Thank god for rescue Remedy i was a bag of nerves on the morning on Paper 1.
3 down 5 to go. Hoping for a nice Biology paper. Then it would be happy days:)
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love it as much as a i love the original:) x

boringblog

Jus coz i was getting a few things said on formspring...i didnt start a blog to write about coool things. i only have it for myself, if people read it thats great and if they like it even betta:D it aint to impress anyone so sorry if it disapoints u but it isnt sposed to have a point to it...its just a normal blog:)

Hairrrr

Why is it i can neverrr win with my hairdresser?! Everytime i suggest a different colour or cut im always persuaded out of it>:( I always end up giving in to them because they start talking about things i dont understand then i get worried that theyr right and i really am gonna fuck up my hair....oh darn.

I wanted to go blonder for the summer, but its not that much brighter...jus has more blonde going through it at the top. It always looks so fake when i first get it done, coz i have like no roots at all so it kinda looks like im wearing a wig ahaha. i got a side fringe too. a real one!! It tickles my eyes but i actually really like it:) Most adventurous cut ive had in my hair for a long time haha...
I even tried to cut it myself when i went home...i really dont trust myself though!! People make it sound so easy, i just made it look a bit more blended into the rest of my hair wasnt gna chance doing anything drastic

Also learned how to do a fishtail braid...thers loadsa tutorials on youtube for them but it only works if u have long hair/extensions. im obsessed with it now!! i keep braiding my hair into a fishtail, especially when i'm studying...coz i need more things to procrastinate on yano ha...++plus its a cute way to keep ur hair outa the way wen ur sunbathing on the beach:D x

summerclothes

I need some sort of time machine so i cant just transport myself to the 18th june and its all over.
The minute German is finished im going shopping for summer clothes. My wardrobe is full or dark colours at the moment because i havent gone shopping in months. Its so annoying, even just to throw something on going down to the shop is a struggle...i literally have nothing nice=|
I love these shorts. theyr so cute but id say its hard to find things to wear with it.
Im starting to loose faith in Topshop aswel...their Summer collections are nothing amazing considering it can be pricey enough.
Might start going to places like Newlook and Bershka....theyr good for the odd nice cheap outfit:)
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letsgetmarried!!

loveee this song...:)

sunday

Life is full of highs and lows.
Im just going through a serious low before the high =/
Not fun.

Delish.

I feel like my head is going to explode tonight.
Will this headache plz fuckofff. These next 3weeks are gonna be awwful=/
Wish i had more friends doing the Leaving Cert too, Majority of people i know are in first year college and it Feels like everyone is having the time of their liiife ahaha. I know this is not true but it certainly feels like it.

Also had a couple people say they like my blog on formspring. Im actually surprised people even read this neva mind like it ha...was heartwarming. Someone else did say it sucked tho...little less heartwarming aha.
Pressure to talk about things of interest now=O...apologies in advance for disapointment haha...

Things that are getting me seriously excited about Ibiza this week...
This delish french connection bikini that i cannot afford...or look remotely as well in as this stunner¬_¬


And a delish summer song:)

54days to freedom.

Is it possible to cram 2years of learning into 6weeks? Im gonna have to find out...
54days till the Leaving is over. 66days to my birthday:D 95days to ibiza^.^
delish.

Starting to think that formspring and blogs are turnin into sly ways to have a go at people??
So stupid...formspring was always gonna be like that, everyone is gonna be ten times nastier and braver when they're anonymous. Im lucky i dont get it bad but ive seen serious abuse on a few girls pages. i dont understand how they keep their formspring tbh but fair fucks to em not deletin it over the meanies. I've only had a couple of semi-mean comments and i even get anxious when i see i have a question in the inbox coz one of these days i will get a horrible comment and ill probably take it proper to heart haha.

You see people's true colours eventually though. Im thankful for the mates i have when i hear about sly creeepsdoing sly creepy things haha.
And especially over one person who has shocked me this week.
If i see him again.,... He's getting a shlappp
And my slaps hurt. tiny hands are like whips¬_¬

on a lighter note...bitta blink plz:)

Images I enjoy.

IBIZA

Planning on booking Ibiza for a week in july/august. Im ridiculously excited.
Nobody believes its going to happen. And to be honest i dont believe it myself until its actually booked. Ahhh the thoughts of being in ibiza=D
lets hope it actually happens.
Space. Privilege. Amnesia. Cream. Pacha.
:)
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Martha Stewart gone wrong

Tried to cancell out all my unproductive days this week by doing everything in one day. I studied, baked and gardened.

Started off with a bit of studying since i spent basically the whole day in petes yesterday. I actually have a study plan that i might aswel not have bothered making haha. But yeah i got a bit done...

Then i decided id sow all my sweet pea seeds, anything to get away from studying business. I literally keep looking out my window into the garden like im expectin to see a little green sprout after a few hours of being sown haha...first time gardening so my expectations are high!

And Thennn, i decided id make some double chocolate brownies,....serious serious fail. ugh i cant even say its one of them things that look shit yet taste great, how home-made things should be. Its just looks like shit and tastes like shit:( i nearly got sick when i cut myself a lil slice. it was like chocolate egg. and not the good kind. im upset even writing about it, took a serious blow to my baking confidence. i may even put up a picture of a shit with this blog to enphasise how shit it was. gah....

Headin out 2moro night anyway, i need a good night out since lastweek was a bit of a fail! If only i had something to wear:( x xx

Sunday Mornings.

Planning to have a productive day...not going so well since its 4 o clock and im not long awake! I could plant my sweet peas since its so nice out?...or study?? ahh the thoughts of sitting down and learning>:(

Lastnight turned out pretty much how i expected it to...dont know why i bother sometimes:( Wore the cutest dress ever too, such a pitty i didnt wear it on a good night haha, typical..Was good seeing hannah though, havent had a night out with her in over a year so was glad we got to catch up before she went away...
I know now anyway what to expect for next time...I dont know what the word for something thats opposite to special is...but thats how im feeling right now:(

Oh well, hopefully Jersey Shore later on will cheer me up:D x x x

E talking.

Just for the video. haha, this is the way irish clubs are heading

The Test

I will never get sick of the chemical brothers. They're amazing.

Easter

YESSSSSS. off for 2weeks!! yum. God the institute is just becoming depressing getting closer to the leaving. its getting harder to get up, go in and stay in. Although ive been trying so hard lately to do my best im proper proud of myself. Gna be an absolute basket case in a couple weeks when the Orals come up, so im feeling sorry already for everyone thats gonna havto deal with me being a nervous wreck ha.

I will miss seeing some of the people though. Its weird. I dont even know how i feel about half of them anymore? ive seen different sides to everyone, not all that i liked so ive distanced myself from a lot of people. But to be soo honest i dont have a problem with anyone personally. Out of all the places ive been, they really make me feel loved there. haha its soo weird, I dont even understand why, ive never done anything particularly nice but they make me out that im some Angel haha. This is only certain people of course....but they've made being in that school such a good experience for me:)
I dont know how that paragraph wil come across if anyone reads it coz it does sound confusing but ther ye go...

Besiiides all that shittt. Im gagging to go away. I'm really feeling like a need a lil break. Just away somewhere! I might go somewhere over easter if i get a chance...and if i dont, a bit of shopping will ease the pain hahah. Few nights out with the girls are needed!! xx

Spring

I have such an urge to buy loads of pastel colour clothes, its all im looking at when im shopping these days. Should reeeeally get new clothes.

Bought some sweet pea seeds the other day...bit spur of the moment but ive decided im a gardener now haha. My garden is so dull it needs a bit of colour, so i bought the nice lilac/purple coloured packet:) For a first time gardener they're supposed to be easy enough to grow but i have my doubts...¬_¬

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The Prodigy - Omen

Im not a major fan of their new stuff but this song is class. It sounds a bit teeny bopper at the start but if you listen to it the whole way throught its so good. Drums in it are class.

Oh dear.

Slight understatement to how i felt the day after Paddys Day. Oh sweet jesus that was the worst biology class i have ever sat through. Shaking, cold sweats, dizziness. I dont know why i even went to school?...clearly left after the first class. Never again.:(:(

Good night to be fair, most of it anyway...

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So lastnight i realised that i was a bad judge of charachter. for certain people anyway.

I will never understand someone who fucks up every decent relationship they have.

I think the reason i was the target of random mean-ness was because im happy at the moment and that person didnt like it. I realy cant explain it with any other reason=/ I wont spend any longer thinking about it either way. Not gonna be in they're path of self destruction thanksssverymuch.

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Im staying in on a Saturday night again, for a few reasons : I have so much stuff to do school wise, im still recovering from thursday and ozly no mullaa.

Bottled a German Oral today aswel. I made it all the way into school, on a SATURDAY. and bottled it. ill do it on tuesday tho!!:( fuck all this work is sneakin up on me outa nower!!

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No seriously i will go red...

.........give me a couple months;)

St.Patricks Day

Its the day before st patricks day, my writing is appropriately in green...and i am very excited. Im gonna enjoy my lie on tomorrow so much. Ive done nothing for school this week, ive just came home slept and facebooked. Its all i can manage im just so tired constanlty its so annoying.

So tomorrow will be paddys day anyway, drinks will be had of course. I'm going to school on thursday so i'm kinda worried ill be fucked in the morning. If i dont sleep the drink off i always get horrible hangovers.. but im gonna go in for atleast the first class see how i cope= ahh fuk the thoughts of it is putting a dampener on my plans already. Majority of people im talkin to doin the Leaving aswel are being sensible and staying. Probably what i should be doing but its fucking paddys day ppl....ur sposed to go out and have funnn. dryyy ppl.

Least ther wont be any snakes around..............x

Friday nights in.

Staying in on a friday night is a killerrr..
Really liking Crystal Fighters right now...makes being bored a bit more bearable.

This summer is actually going to be sick. I cant imagine not ever going back to school again. Being 18 and not having to worry at all about getting into clubs. Its actually so annoying. And i dont care if people say 'but you always get in you'll be grand'...coz it will be that ONE night that i wont haha.
Anyway i only have 3months left of it...probably be studying for most of that.
Cant waaaiit to be finished ahhh its going to be so good.
Just hope the buzz isnt ruined on the 18th August! gahh=/

Im off to watch Breakfast on Pluto. slarrrrrxx

wtf its March?!

Where did the last couple months just go?? Fuck sake. I cant decide wheither its a good or a bad thing. Closer to the leaving or closer to summer...? either way i just want this done and overrr.

Sickens me reading back how much i talk about school. thats how fucking shit 6th year is!! haha..

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Woke up this morning with a whopper headache. Lastnight was so good. Went to quinns first with Amy cause i had already promised her i would but when we got there it was actually so shit. I really dont like that place. So i left and went to some gaff in santry all the girls were at. And it was one of the best gafs ive been to in aages. One of them gafs were the person who owns it actually doesnt give a fuck what happens to his house haha. It was great. the place was packed and pete brought up his speakers and smoke machine so it looked class in the living room.

Nor going out tonight anyway. Feels like someone blared a foghorn at me for an hour. The neighbours are knockin down walls aswel so its just not a good day for a hangover altogether haha!!

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Im still thinking about dying my hair red. I reeally am so tempted to do it. Not yet but when im 18. Nobody seems to like the idea. they keep telling me how nice the colour of my hair is now but its been blondey for aaages im so bored with it>:(

Be Yourself.

Yano when someone tells you to just be yourself? why does that always make it just seems soo unatural and difficult to do?! haaaa.
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So, the mocks are 2moro. Now that its 4am and im still not asleep im guessing i wont be waking up too early in the morning for my last day of study. bugger. cant stop saying that lately.
probably because everything seems to fall into that description at the moment.
that and 'fml' which i couldnt stand this time lastyear i thought it was so melodramamtic. I now understand! Faak you LeavingCert. presssuuuure >:(
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On a happier note today was Valentines Day. Happy couples and Bitter Singles haha what a gimick holiday! I neither gave or received cards this year and i had a lovely day =]

If i get through this week without failing German or procrastinating more than usual it will be a fucking miracle
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Mood Swings

I didnt leave the house today. I think thats why im feeling a bit cranky.
My friends are all going out tonight but i promised myself i would stay in for study! In fairness i did work today and im quite proud of myself...until my dad started hoovering then it was a massive fail. Ive been on this all day distracting myself unecessarily:(
Most exciting thing was starting a formspring today http://www.formspring.me/Alibear92 where people can anonymously ask me questions. Its askin for abuse haha but im hopin only sound people will use it=D Very addictive tho! Not that i need something else to be addicted to on this laptop.
Im off for a hot chocolate to try and revive my mood!
Note to self : Buy marshmallows

Uhhh

I think my heads going to explode:(

Gah

Today is not a good day. I hate waiting on phone calls im so on edge. Woke up at like 4 today with so many texts i just wasnt arsed wb to coz the last one i got the nite before was still on my mind. One of those angry texts you send after you've hung up coz you dont feel you've gotten ur point across before hanging up. Wasnt a nice one...I dont think that person really meant it but i still had to read it and it felt a bit shit.

So i actually did a bit of maths today. I feel im being soo lazy about school i need to cop on. The night before i was always get this inspiration to be reeally studious and do evening study and go to all my classes. But that just goes to shit as soon as im in school! Then i get a wave of guilt when ive come home early or done no homework or did shit in a test i cuda done well in.. Fuck. I shud really fill out my CAO form now that im thinkin about it...least i dnt have anything else on my mind like workin to deal with...

Apart from todays lil drama...

On the brighter side of things we're looking at going to Tenerife this summer. The thoughts of being on the beach or havin a lil aprtment with the girls is such a nice thought! Got paid aswel so im gna be doin serious saving.

Maybe a few nice outfits here nd there...but thats it!!